First of all, I read that a golden rule of blogging is never to apologise for a long absence, but it’s been well over a year since I posted anything as I was afraid of repeating myself or boring my readers. Other bloggers fall into this trap, maintaining a daily/weekly update until repetition creeps in and posts become familiar, plus my life is not so interesting for such regular updates!
So have I moved much more forward since I last wrote ? Probably not, which is why I don’t update this much anymore as I think perhaps I should be further than I am.
Let’s begin :-
At the start of 2016 I heard of a regular group that met up twice a month in my home town, and I have pretty much been a regular attendee every fortnight. The group were based in great facilities, a dressing room, kitchen, lounge area up on the third floor of an office block and therefore closed to the general public. I’ve met some great people from all areas of the TG spectrum at this group, from Crossdressers, Transvestites, to pre and post op Transsexuals, all of varying ages but veering towards the mature side. Unfortunately funding has been pulled from the site so we are currently in limbo looking for a new home.
My wife is aware and is happy for me to attend this group, she sees it as ‘scratching the itch’ but has not yet seen me dressed yet, I get changed before and after the meetings so I’m home in male mode. I keep suggesting a night out with me ‘en-femme’ to see me as I am but (understandably) she says she is not ready but says she may attend my Xmas party (see below).
My wardrobe has grown and grows closer to 50/50 male/female clothes, all hung up with pride of place. As a couple we do talk about my crossdressing, but it’s always civil and normally only mentioned about my group meets, such as ‘was it busy?’ ‘What did you talk about’ etc.
I’m happy, but I always want more, I always feel I’m pushing at the envelope but don’t want to push too hard as I don’t want to lose my family, therefore I’m on a constant tightrope swaying back and forth, trying to keep my balance when everything is trying to topple me.
Still I’ve got a big TG Xmas party coming up, 2 tickets obtained (for me and wife), hotel booked, sparkly dress bought with a pair of hot heels, should be a good night and my wife says she may come unless she gets last minute nerves.
For the last two years my wife has bought Lucy jewellery so I’m hoping this will be a great Christmas for both sides of my nature 🙂